Everything turns upside down

At this very moment,all I wanna do is just cry my lungs out like nobody care and like as if there is no tomorrow. I hate myself for being such a 'SMART' girl who actually doesn't really think about my future since all I ever wanted was to become a teacher. Screw you,government. You screwed my future. Seriously,I really don't know why you guys messed up my life in such a condition. Give me a reason at least. WHY AM I NOT QUALIFIED FOR KPLSPM? And now,you all sent me to that freaky PLKN to train me. Get a life government! I can serve the future children well. I love to teach. I am born to teach. The moment I tapped into the website and saw my name is not qualified,I nearly cried. Why? I asked myself why. Is it because my SPM results sucks? Probably yes I guess. Mummy asked me where I wanna go now. I really don't know. I am lost now. I never think of anything other than teaching. Sigh. *cries* I can maybe just take up Form6 and spend my 2 years thinking what to do. Or maybe like mummy said,take up Business courses in UTAR.